pondering waves

 

"incoming and outgoing”

becoming aware of my breathing
following the steady in and out
arising, cresting and fading away
breath moving though me like waves

and i wonder and begin to experiment -
can emotions be sensed the same?
continual waves
arising, cresting and fading away

it would seem so

then follows the observation of thoughts
arising, cresting and fading away
a constant flow and flux
moving through 

a liberating,
continuing
in-house
observation


 

current best reasoning

 

living in the land of “It Would Seem So” what do i know for sure?

after observing 
on a Saturday night and a Monday morning
when satiated or hungry
in the spring of life and in the winter months
what is beneficial for one and all?

after contemplating and reasoning
continually
when well-rested or tired
what is beneficial for one and all?

what is worthy to be accepted, 
practiced and lived in accordance with?

not because of traditions or personal habits,
not because it was adopted from sages or pundits,
not because it is the view of authority or the view of the masses

but because it agrees with my own current best reasoning
to the benefit of one and all
that is my living path


 

forgiveness

 

“a remedy in life’s medicine cabinet”

imagine, 
holding no grudge, not even a tiny one

imagine,
no longer carrying the weight of resentments

imagine,
having forgiven enemies, loved ones and self

imagine,
having disentangled and tidied up the past
being free to meet this moment unobstructed

imagine,
forgiveness as a remedy in life’s medicine cabinet
always available to heal

imagine,
how it would feel to embody forgiveness 
as a mental habit, an attitude, a way of life

imagine,
forgiveness as an agent of change
that seeks to create and maintain greater love


 

She, who keeps the rhythms

 

“of constancy and change”

on solstice morning my bare feet touch 
the sacred ground of Mother Earth

She, Who Keeps the Rhythms 
of our Wheel of Life

 in faithful
regularity

spinning through space, never
in the same place twice

in harmony with Father Sun,
Moon Child and the Galaxies

what a wondrous paradox to behold seasons
of constancy and change


 

a wonder held tenderly

 

“when i meet death”

when i meet death
will i be trusting?

will i be curious
when the veil is drawn aside

and meet death
with the heart of a child?

can i approach my death
as a wonder held tenderly in the heart?

have i prepared myself?
time will tell

if i will cling and fight
or let go peacefully

for now let me practice making peace,
deepening the wonder, tending the garden of trust


 

abandon myself

 

“now”

wisdom tells me that life is a stream
of slow eddies and fast currents

that the weather within is
always on the move

yet how i observe the show
how i witness, frame and reframe

and tell the story to myself
that can be refined and honed

life can be viewed through many lenses
and i notice how i am still too scared

to fully embrace life in all its messy glory
to hold the sorrows and the joys

the world’s pains and generations of sweet laugher
and surrender to the Great Mystery

if i could travel back in time, i would tell myself
to abandon myself to love

to be still enough, to be open enough, to be vast enough
to hold the note of perpetual surrender

i would tell myself to remember now
and in the now that arrives just now


 

one of us

 

“wholly deserving”

on her beautiful skin i walk
my feet touching the ground

and Earth whispers: i am here . . .
for you

in her cool waters i wash
 and splash - quenching my thirst

again i hear:
i am here for you

and as the wind brushes against my face
the ocean of air echoes:

we are here for you,
we are here for you . . .

the moon, the sun,
the seasons too declare how

wholly deserving they find me
to joke with them

how loved i am!


 

two little birds

 

“open the window wide”

woke with the sound of sparrows
mating outside my open window

in time, soft and playful the young will arrive
and voyage through the web of life

we enter and exit the stage of life the same
after birth - death is guaranteed

sparrow and girl
can’t change the course of the Wheel

so natural 
yet fear makes such a fuss

all part of the game 
the known, unknown, and unfathomable 

so what’s a girl to do?
fill the sails with trust

open the window wide
be with the songs of life


 

into the mystery

 

“melting all doubts”

what do you call them
these meaningful moments

that reconnect you to
the mystery of your existence 

that come so unexpectedly, 
with divine tenderness, melting all your doubts

into clarity and union
if only for an instant

these moments that are so unique to your life,
calling you close again, into the mystery

how your soul glows
when you remember your moments


 

make yourself soft again

 

“…and forgiving”

do you remember . . .
uncontrolled giggles and belly laughs

ripples of mirth
cascading from eyes to lips

let us travel again to this land of joy
in fact, let us live there

where we are soft and resilient
where ease abounds

and nothing is too sacred to be joked about
where our fears are kites in the wind

and our capricious egos
are watched like good sporting matches

where we know that our culture is a little mad,
but we don’t mind

for we have become curious again
and forgiving,
and now there is trust among us

fools, under the same stars,
here for a while
rejoicing


 

conversation with a lemon

 

“we pause and connect”

before i flavor my drink
we pause and connect

she tells me of dawn light, the morning air
and night sounds under the stars

her memories of the soil, of rain squalls and pollination,
how fond she was of the bees,

the underground song-lines amongst
her kin in the orchard are news to me

she tells me of her heritage
the seed her mother once was
planted, cared for, for many years

then, of the hands that picked her
the bumpy ride, skin to skin,
a seasons generation, all going to market
a journey of hundreds of miles

being displayed under lights made by man
that is where we first met
me unaware . . . she just one more item to procure

now that we have become acquainted
gratitude and awe fill me, as i slice this lemon

and i stand in wonder, slightly overwhelmed
at the contents of my refrigerator


 

bon voyage

 

“skillful ways”

sometimes we get shown a skillful way
that can radically improve the quality of our life

a shift of perception that brings insight
new skillful means of communication that takes us
from the land of loneliness to genuine companionship
mindful habits that bring us a foundation of inner peace

we are able to learn and integrate new ways
at any age and let ourselves be moved 
by fresh currents

just imagine what this means . . . 
vast new horizons lay ahead!

as we embark on the journey of unlearning
the confines of our old ways

I wish us all
Bon Voyage!


 

not minding

 

“ The Art of Not Minding”

here i stand before myself

a patchwork of mindsets and memories

of fussy habits and divine spark

amidst the veils of my bewilderment

incongruences and beautiful delights

i try to make peace with them all

equally

practicing the Noble Art of Not Minding

of holding lightly the

i, me and mine

surrendering identity to observing

waves, in cycles of crests and valleys 

beholding

trusting

being

nothing and everything

in a wink


 

gentle endurance

 

“holding the course”

entering this new land,
disorientation accompanies me
as i meet the unfamiliar

then i hear a timeless call:
adapt
and it echo’s:
adapt . . . adapt . . . . adapt . . . . . far into the distance

to thrive,
it continues,
hold the course
of calm
compassionate patience


foster
gentle endurance

for this is just the beginning of a journey
of still unimaginable gifts


 

the grand parade

 

“endlessly entertaining”

amazing, how within a heartbeat
awareness can shift from the external worlds
to my internal wonderland

how i can sense the body’s state of wellbeing,
then observe the swell of emotional tides

now point my focus to the realm of thoughts
witnessing them as they move about on this fine morning

some light and bright, a few scary-sharp,
while others are filled with the hot air of self-importance

oh, what a marvel they are, as they strut before before me
endlessly entertaining, bewildering,
easy to get lost in . . . for a whole life time.

what then, i ponder, should my relationship be
to this grand parade of thoughts?


 

my oasis

 

“nurtured by the rains of presence”

what do they have in common?
the genuine smile 
and moment of sincere patience…

the giving thanks before a meal,
wholehearted listening,
and wishing another well…

these acts - and their kin,
bring me home again
into the freshness of being present

they are the nurturing rains
that water the seeds, 
sprouts and budding plants
in my oasis