waking up

in the monotony
of daily routines

it’s easy to forget
that life in human form

is short
and uncertain

what will matter
in a hundred years?

letting the seasons be
as they are takes courage

may the mind free itself
of misperceptions

and look with compassion
upon its current limitations

unconcerned with the faults
of others, it turns towards
the inner art of waking up

getting to know you

getting to know
the quiet hour

when stillness is near
when the eyes see

and the mind
sees beauty

when the ears hear
and the mind hears harmonies

how fleeting, how subtle,
how marvelous

this mystery
of living

the heart
overflows

i can not force
these moments

they come
in their own time

realizing this
the mind eases
into not minding

the loving pause

sometimes i miss
the split second

that avoids the unkind word
being thought, or spoken

and my communication
gets troubled

if this happens
i try to remember
the loving pause

then i feel and say
something like this:

i really want to
work this out with you

i am unable to be
present right now

i love you

is it okay to take some time
to connect with myself

so that i can be
more present with you?

this is practicing peace
in thought and word

reconnecting

after a while away
from myself

i long to reconnect
to the sweetness of living

it’s not far,
nor difficult

the child
in me remembers

how wonderful
it is

when bare feet and hands
touch the land intently

how the wind offers
freshness and hints of freedom

connecting with the elements
before fixed ideas can crowd in

finding
myself

interwoven in
the river of life

inner adventure

mindfulness
requires attention

at first this is an idea
later it becomes an insight

and the question pops up:
so what the heck is attention?

what attracts it?
what sustains it?

does attention ever tire,
or just move from place to place?

how soft can attention be?
how narrow, how broad?

i want to find out!
gently, persistently

again life invites me
on another great
inner adventure

no feeling is final

what if things change?

quietly or quickly
they always do

what if i embrace this
truth wholeheartedly?

that there is nothing
to hold on to

that living
is witnessing

the movement of
flowering and fading away

of breath, cells and
thoughts

that no feeling
is final

how light living can be
when the mind

is a welcoming space
for the living flow

at first

here we are, again
entering into contemplation

through this moment’s
gate of perception

in contemplation the shy,
the hidden come into view

much will be encountered
not all, at first, seems wonderful

yet even fear becomes a gift
and facing pride brings insight

observing what comes
without adding commentary

receiving all equally,
how impossible this sounds at first

wondrous then,
that quite naturally

it seems to move that way
all by itself

bursts of joy

beachcombing through the day
ambling, with senses keen

noticing a curious stone
a shiny shell fragment

in this moment
a simple burst of joy

making contact,
maybe carrying

then letting go, into
a new uncluttered freedom

hands and mind
open once again

this coming and going
of small joys

brings ease
to cloud-mind

relaxing, softening
healing through joy

can i be certain

questions asked
in the hour of dawn

why do i get so upset?

what in me feels wronged and gets hurt?

can i observe my inner resistance?

and also sense curiosity and kindness
arriving to aid this inquiry?

now a young voice asks:
where do my thoughts come from?

why is thought
so vexing?

am i the thinker?
am i thinking?

how can i be certain of anything
if i can not answer:
what am i?

little freakouts

i try to pause
to breathe and relax

ahhh  . . .
nope, argh!

here’s where my intentions
meet the momentum of
my habitual doing-ness

my mind left to itself
freaks out a little

it encounters boredom
and that’s not easy

so the mind begins to think
story upon story

it gets enthralled
in rehashing history

or plans the next meal
or finds itself in amazing daydreams
or simply nods off for a while

or it invents an urgent task
and finds itself half way across
the room before noticing
it’s no longer pausing

yup, it’s not easy

yet there is a longing
that calls me back to myself
that knows

and i try pausing again
and it becomes easier
and funnier

still marvelous

still marvelous
observing the breath

the in and out
rhythm of life

lungs sucking
in air

a momentary
fullness

then the tide turns
and in becomes out

a momentary
stillness

until the next breath
rushes in, unique and vital

each breath connecting
into the ocean of air

into the chorus
of all beings breathing

into the first breath,
last breath continuum